Of Love for My Husband

I've been hearing from Ryan pretty regularly for the past week so that's kept me in a pretty good mood most of the time. It's good to be able to have real conversations because we know there will be another one in the near future. So we never feel like we waste one. Where as with a phone call every three weeks we end up just saying I love you and I miss you a million times rather than waste what precious time we have talking about our finances or plans for the future.

Ryan seems a lot less adamant about getting out of the USMC now. I think now that he isn't staring at the beginning of a long deployment but rather the end of shorter one, he feels a lot less trapped and lost about things. So where our lives will go when this enlistment is up I don't know. We could re-enlist. We could change branches. We could get out entirely. It just depends on our school and financial situations at the time and what each branch of service has to offer us. We shall see when the time comes. Two and a half years is a lot of time to change our minds over and over again.

I'm getting really excited now that I'm in the home stretch of pregnancy. Sometime in the next 5 weeks, hopefully closer to her due date rather than not, Anya will be here. Within two or three weeks of that I'll be moving which I could not be more ready for. Being settled with our things in a space that is ours again for the first time in a while will be so wonderful. And within a week to three weeks after the move Ryan will be home. Hopefully closer to a week rather than not. : ) I can't wait to see him get off of that bus. It will be the best day ever. And the day we were reunited after boot camp was pretty amazing. But I already now this will top that which is hard to imagine. I was so full of love and giddiness on that day I thought I was going to explode.

I'm sure the nervousness will start to set in once Anya's here, too. We'll both have changed during this time apart, and we'll have to get to know each other all over again to an extent. But I don't think that's a bad thing. We'll get to honeymoon like it's the first time, and I think that's something that will keep our romance alive. This separation just put everything into perspective and gives us an opportunity to realize what we take for granted and fix those things within ourselves that were harming us as a couple. It's very...therapeutic in a weird sort of way.

All I know for sure is that I love my husband more than ever, and I can't wait to have him back in my daily life to take full advantage of. But I know that after this I will be more aware of the things I take for granted and try to show more appreciation for everything he does for me. He is my entire world. And I want him to be reassured of that each and every day from here on out. It's the least I can do for the sacrifices he has made serving this country and keeping our little family safe and provided for. He's pretty much the most amazing guy ever. <3