Feeling Down

I'm feeling incredibly depressed today. Just mopey and unmotivated to do much of anything. I was doing so well on the motivation front, too. I think I just feel overwhelmed. I have all these creative projects for myself that I want to accomplish before Ryan's homecoming, apartment furniture to buy before moving, baby stuffs to buy before the due date, and exercising to do before I become a lard. I think it feels overwhelming because even though it isn't a lot, I can't really do most of it all at once. I have to wait to be able to afford furniture and the last few big baby items. I can't find exercise videos I like to add to my walking routine. I don't really feel like I have the space to spread out my craft projects and do them to the best of my ability. Just ugh. Somebody motivate me, please. I hate feeling all mopey and unproductive like this.

I think a lot of it has to do with missing Ryan. He's been gone almost 3 months. The longest we've been apart was during basic training. At the end of 3 months boot camp was over, and we were together again for a while. But this time he's not coming home. This deployment isn't even 1/3 of the way over yet. We have a long way to go. And that definitely depresses me. I just want a Ryan hug. : ( But I have to get over it and motivate myself to keep pushing forward. The less mopey I am the better I'll feel and the faster the remaining time will go. I was feeling all good about it for a while there. I just need to get back in my zone...whatever that may be.

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