23 Weeks

I'm posting it a bit late, but here I am at 23 weeks pregnant. Next week I'll be hitting the 6 month mark! Crazy. I'm beginning to get a little apprehensive about labor and delivery without Ryan. I know having him there would make things so much easier for me in terms of dealing with the pain and panic. I tend to freak out a lot when I don't know what to expect or how to deal with something. As of right now I'm looking at having at least my mother in there with me, but I'm kind of super self-conscious and private so I'm not sure what I really want to do. She's gone to all of my appointments with me up to this point, though. I'm guessing Ryan's mom will want to be there, but I'm not sure I'm comfortable with that. I'm thinking she'll be relegated to the waiting room because I just don't want to be worried about who is seeing what when I should just be concentrating on experiencing the birth of my child. Ugh. I'll have to figure it all out and try not to hurt too many feelings in the process. But in the end it's my decision, and everyone else can just deal with it or be mad for a very long time.