Like a School Girl

Orientation ended up being a complete and total waste of time as I'd already done everything they wanted me to accomplish. I did get a trip to the mall out of the day, but I definitely ran into my grade/middle school crush while carrying about 8 pounds of cookie cake up the escalator. Yeah...that was a tad bid humiliating. Especially because I blushed about ten shades of red when he stopped to talk to me for a few minutes. I felt kind of guilty considering I'm a married, pregnant lady - why on Earth would someone I liked way back when still make me blush like a school girl? I think it's just one of those delusional first loves that was never marred by an actual relationship. No fights, no insults, no tears, no heartbreak. So I still get flustered and grin like an idiot. Eh. I feel a bit bad about it, but it is what it is.

Not that Ryan doesn't make me grin like an idiot or become flustered. Especially when we're apart like this. Every phone call, IM, or message he leaves for me makes me smile for days and gives me butterflies in my stomach. <3 I still haven't heard from him since Monday. No news is good news, but I miss him so much. I was spoiled by talking to him almost every day. Hopefully he'll write to me or something so I can get an idea of what is going on and what to expect in the communication department now that things have apparently changed. His little brother graduated from high school last night so I'm probably going to send him some pictures and let him know how it goes once I find out what the best way to do that is. Heh. I really miss my other half. He makes every day worth getting up for.