He Loves Me

Ryan called me on the phone last night! It made me smile to hear his voice. He really, really misses me. And so far it sounds like the separation is even harder on him than it is on me. Of course, the last few times we were apart he was in intense training for boot camp and MCT so his days were full with little free time to even think about how long it'd been since he's seen me. Deployments are a little different. His schedule has more holes for him to fill with entertaining himself so he ends up missing me a lot more. I suppose I'm already used to the days slowly dragging by because, for me, boot camp and this deployment are no different. I'm still doing the exact same thing, and time still moves just as slowly. So I was more prepared for that aspect than he was, I think.

It's only been a week, and he's already pretty sure that he can't do this long term. As in more than one enlistment. Because the distance hurts him too much. I didn't expect it to get to him as much as it has because, like I said, I've already done this when he was training. I got through, welcomed him home proudly, and moved on to the next phase. Maybe I'm a lot stronger than I give myself credit for. Maybe it's just the initial sadness of being pulled apart that's talking on his end right now, and he'll have a different opinion when he comes home. We'll just have to wait and see, I suppose. I support him no matter what his decision is. But I must admit, I'm pretty darn proud to be the wife of a United States Marine.

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Need information on rv parks? Ryan and I aren't the camping types. Humorous considering Ryan's current employer, ne? He hates outdoorsy things.