Bleh

I'm so unmotivated to do much of anything. I really want to get myself into a better routine and accomplish several things during all of this time I have: refresh my Japanese, learn some basic guitar for my Hello Kitty Fender, scrapbook, start school this summer, finish reading all of my military wife and pregnancy reference books, etc. But instead I usually just sit around staring off into space doing absolutely none of those things. I'm angry with myself for it, but I can't seem to drag myself out of the rut. Ugh. Here's hoping when some of the first trimester sleepiness slacks of that I'll stop slacking so much.

I think I'm putting a lot of things off until after Ryan deploys. Which is good, I guess, because I'm going to need anything and everything I can get my hands on to forget that I can't just pick up the phone and hear my husband's voice whenever I please. I suppose I can let myself be lazy until then. But I'll give myself that as a deadline. Knowing how I can be with free time, I might have to schedule out my days to get things done instead of just watching Asian dramas and slipping slowly into madness for hours at a time.