Still in Shock

So it's still sinking in that I'm pregnant. I have my first prenatal appointment at 9 o'clock in the morning to make it all official and find out how far along I am. I think that first ultrasound will be what really drives it home for me. I'm just sad that Ryan isn't going to be here to experience the moment with me. At least I'll be in North Carolina in time for the gender determining ultrasound so he'll be there for that one. Speaking of which, I'm staying here in Tennessee until mid-April. That's when the apartment we want is available, and Ryan is going to have a 30 day field operation at another base next month that would have prevented him from being home even if I were already there anyway.

We're both talking and adjusting to the fact that our lives are drastically changing. We had planned to hold off on kids and spend the next year or so finishing school, saving money, traveling to Japan, looking into Vegas vacations just because we've never been, and just settling into our life together a little more first. But life doesn't care about plans so here we are about to have our first child before the end of the year. I think emotionally we're as ready as we can be. Things might be a little tight financially and trying to schedule school for myself, but we'll make it work. We're happy, and we don't see our lives as ruined or dampered in any way; just different. And we'll embrace it and mold our plans around it.