Impending Unexpected Absence of the Husband Variety

So we found out that Ryan is being deployed sooner than originally though. A lot sooner. As in soon enough that I needn't bother moving to North Carolina at all...until next summer. Yeah. It's one of those super awesome year-long deployments. Which sucks. But, we signed up for this life so I'll roll wit it. I was prepared for this, I just thought I'd be living with him up until his first deployment. We haven't even had time to get me to the duty station yet. So we've decided that for the sake of my pregnancy, Ryan's piece of mind, and our bank account, the smartest thing to do is for me to stay right here until he's home again.

I'm hoping to head to Jacksonville for a few days sometime soon to see him before he gets too busy with all of the hardcore training that will encompass most of his time leading up to deployment. I'm glad that I went to California with him against the rules and against everyone else's opinions. It was worth every dime. We're both upset that he won't be here for the baby. But this is the lifestyle we've chosen. My parents have cleaned out their spare bedroom to move some of my furniture and belongings into so I can get set up a little more permanently here. It'll be nice to have a little corner to call my own...and the baby's once it's arrived.

This is going to be hard. But I'm determined to be the strong military wife I promised Ryan I'd be when we began this portion of our life together. Especially now that we're bringing our first child into it. He needs to know that I'm okay. That the two of us he's leaving here at home are okay. And I can do that much for him. I'd do anything for him. And for the next year I'll be doing it all.