The Twilight Zone

My mind has no idea what time is what or which direction anything is going in right now. Having no structure in my days or even weeks is not good for me. The only days I even eat regular meals or follow my usual routine of getting ready and going out into the sunlight are the days Ryan is here. The rest of the days just blend together into one long nap with ramen and a shower thrown in every little while. I'm not really sure how to fix it. I just don't seem to be motivated ever. But I need to do something because this isn't healthy for me. I feel so disoriented and unproductive.

Suggestions? Beyond just getting my arse out of bed. Haha. My problem is I don't really have a good reason to get out of bed on a daily basis. Just the days Ryan is here, and I have someone to look nice for, cook for, and clean up for. The rest of the time I just want to sleep until it's time for him to be with me again. It's becoming an unhealthy pattern. Ugh. I feel like I'm sleeping my life away in between bad TV movies and Asian dramas. I'm trying to get back into my creative endeavors, but I'm having trouble even motivating myself that far. Help?