To Sleep or Not to Sleep

I haven't been to bed yet. I dozed for about an hour, but it didn't take. Haha. Someone is coming to fix the heater this afternoon so I'm deciding whether I should try and sleep now and risk crashing straight through to when they arrive and hope I don't look to awful or just hitting the shower within the next hour or so and heading to the laundromat and cleaning the apartment - and myself - before they arrive. Decisions, decisions. Eh, who am I kidding? I'll probably crash and hope to wake up in time to shower and be decent before they knock on my door.

I hate having to ration my visits to Ryan on base out so we don't spend too much money. I miss him every moment that I'm here and he's there. I'm trying to hold off until Friday to go back, and by then he should be able to come here and just stay the entire weekend with me as long as no one messes things up between now and then. I could just really use a hug and some face-to-face 'I love you's' today. I'm in a mini-slump. Maybe I should just stay up instead of becoming the groggy, mopey mess sleeping until noon will make me. Ugh. I miss having a normal sleeping pattern. Darn me and my emotional baggage that make for many sleepless nights when there is absolutely nothing wrong. Heh. Help?