Feeling Bleh

Still feeling a little down, but I'm doing better. ^_^ Ended up going by myself to swim at Kesha's house, but we had some girl bonding time and ended up coming back over here with food to watch Juno before she left to spend some time with her boyfriend.

I've been leaving Ryan voicemails on his cell for when he gets it back. I asked him about doing it before he left, and he said having voicemails to look forward to when it was all said and done would be nice. But I'm writing him letters, as well. I've mailed two so far.

I really, really miss my husband. And I seem to be in some kind of emotional funk that I can't get out of. I'm not super depressed or anything, just lethargic feeling. Kind of melancholy. I don't feel like doing much of anything so I sit around all day playing Sims 2 and checking MySpace and/or Facebook at least once an hour. I feel so unproductive and unmotivated all day long. I've been like this pretty much since Ryan left so I think I just feel lonely. I've been hanging out with Kesha and Dallon, which helps, but I still feel the dark cloud of depression rolling in. I don't know what my problem is. My emotions are in overdrive for about the past week. Ugh. I want to cheer up.