Lonliness

Is already setting in. Ugh. I thought I was going to lose my mind last night. Unfortunately, I missed Ryan's arrival phone call from Parris Island. I picked up right as he was hanging up. T-T But it isn't so bad because that phone call is scripted, and I wouldn't have had a chance to say a word before he hung up. And he wouldn't be able to say, "I love you," or anything so that would have probably upset me more than missing the call altogether. He called his recruiter when I didn't answer so Sgt. West called me and let me know Ryan had arrived there safely.

Between Sarah M and Kesha I was on the phone on and off the entire evening until after midnight. Haha. I told them our phone conversations were going to increase drastically, or I was going to go insane from the lack of human contact. ^_^;; But they don't mind. I can't wait until I get to Greeneville in May and can actually hang out with everyone to keep my mind off counting the days until Ryan graduates. It didn't seem real that he was gone until well into last night. Today I'm starting to feel it. But I'm still not crying or mopey. I haven't slept well, though. I'm not used to being by myself at night so I wake up at least once an hour. Which sucks. So I'm contemplating a nap before work. I haven't decided. Part of me wants to be more productive than that since I accomplished nothing yesterday because I was too busy thinking about missing Ryan.

I need to work on my scrapbooking projects. I told Ryan I was going to try and catch up during all this downtime so that by the time he came home I could just scrapbook as things happened and not have huge totes of pictures and stuffs from ten years ago. Haha. I have my work cut out for me. And I'm trying to decide how to organize my scrapbooks. I don't want to have themes; I want them to be more like fancy photo albums so everything about everyone will be in each book from a certain time period. But I'm not sure exactly how I'm going to divide those time periods or anything. I'm working on it, though. I've been making a list of some of the pages I want to put together so I can kind of assign them to whichever time period and in doing so a certain album. I need to get some photoboxes for the leftover photos or maybe some actual albums to just conicide with the scrapbooks or something. I'll figure it out.

I've already written Ryan two letters - both from yesterday. I have to wait until his address postcard arrives before I can mail them, though, because I'll have no idea which platoon he's in until then. I do know his battalion and company, though, because the official Parris Island website lists which ones are graduating when ahead of time. So I just looked up July 3 and found that part out. I'm also part of a forum and a facebook group for support during my lonliness so hopefully all of this writing will be therapeutic. Writing is my emotional outlet - hence the two letters just yesterday for Ryan already - so I foresee much blogging, forum participation, and letter writing in my future.