Grrr

So Aaron didn't call me until last night. It was a short and completely pointless conversation. Then he called as I was leaving work today. O-o Just to tell me he was going to a meeting and wanted to see what I was up to. Weirdo. Then he called me a few minutes ago. People come and go in Aaron's dorm all of the time. So I talk to him for a while, and a couple of guys come in and out just to say what's up and stuff. Then I hear a girl come in. And the first thing out of Aaron's mouth is, "I'll call you back in a little bit." Asshole. Fuck you and your two-timing ways, buddy. If you ever want to come back to me in the future, you have A LOT of ass kissing to do. Because I am NOT the least bit happy with your arse. I've just been getting more and more angry since Thursday. You are digging your own grave right now. I sure hope a piece of ass is worth that to you. And, yes, the knowledge that he is probably making out with some other girl right now does hurt like a bitch, but I'm trying hard to turn that into anger. Because anger makes it easier to move on. Anger makes it easier to block out the good memories of Aaron and the love I still have for him. He's not Aaron anymore anyway. The Aaron I loved never would have done this to me. He would have rather jumped into oncoming traffic than hurt me or be with anyone besides me. This new guy isn't Aaron. He's an asshole. And I really want to hate him.

In happier news, I saw Soccer Dude today. : D (The guy I have a crush on at Tusculum. I actually liked him last semester, but I was dating Aaron and knew it wasn't worth jepordizing that. Heh. At least one of us is loyal.) I didn't get to talk to him, though. T-T But now I'm messaging with him on Facebook so all is well. ^_^ I'm determined to get a date with him. I actually like him so I think it will be a good chance for me to get back out there without it just being an attempt to piss Aaron off. That's why I'm not dating every guy that asks because I know it would just be to make Aaron jealous. But Soccer Dude is someone I could have real feelings for. Might as well give it a shot, ne?