The Phone Call

I'm still thinking about the calling thing. I've made up my mind not to ask him to call me PERIOD. And I don't talk about "us" as a couple unless he brings it up. And I've stopped being so mopey on the phone. He only called twice yesterday. (I think that's a new record low. Haha.) But he's already called twice this morning. XD

It kind of made me smile because he called me three times when I didn't pick up. (I was driving to work.) And then he left me a voice mail. Which I didn't get because he called me a fourth time which I answered because I was finally here in the office. He asked if I got the voice mail, and I said no. He said, "Oh, I just left you one." Haha.

Then he proceeded to tell me he hadn't been to bed yet. I asked why. He said he couldn't sleep. I asked why. He said he didn't know. But I think I do. I think it's about us. But I didn't say anything to him. So he said he was going to try and sleep, and I said okay. Then, not ten minutes later, I missed another call from him while I was across the street getting my morning smoothie (Mango; yummy.). I answered the second time on my way back to the office, and he said he still couldn't sleep.

He asked me to talk to him. So I just started talking about random stuff. (Something you have to know about us: we often talk to each other to put the other one to sleep because the other's voice soothes us. Makes us feel safe, etc.) And he started dozing off. And it just made me smile. After a while of that, he finally said he was going to try and sleep again, and we hung up.

But here's the thing, every time we hang up I still say, "I love you." And I think he calls just to keep hearing me say it. Because yesterday I didn't say it the first time he called, and he didn't call back for a long time. Heh. For some reason knowing he can't sleep because he's thinking about us, and that he keeps calling me just to hear that I still love him, makes me happy. ^_^ I'm just taking it one day at a time and hope for the best. BUT, like I said, I've decided I'm not going to smother him and instead wait for him to come to me or call me.

(The above was copied directly from an e-mail to Christina.)