Just Wondering

Is it bad that I just want to die and get it over with at this point?

I'm tired of pretending everything is okay.

I'm tired of pretending that I'm happy so that no one finds out.

I'm tired of being in constant physical pain.

I'm tired of crying myself to sleep every night...alone.

Damn it.

I need this to stop.

I need it to stop NOW.

Because every day that goes by without him kills me a little more.