Geh

I wish I could keep my mood swings in check. After a good cry, I'm okay again.

I still wish this would be over already, and he would come back to me.

But I know it's going to take more than three days for him to sort himself out.

I don't think I can go without his phone calls right now.

They keep me hoping every time the phone rings that he's decided to have me.

So for now I will let him call. Because I need his comfort just as much as he needs mine.

Maybe next week when I know he's just going to be at home with plenty of time to think, I will implement the no calling rule. I don't know. I just hate to give up the one thing I have left to connect me to him. God, I love him so much. Please bring him back to me. I'd rather die than live without him and live with the pain losing him would cause me. Screw Japan. It means nothing to me without him there.