The Break Up

Aaron and I have broken up. It was a mutual thing. We've been trying to stay together since February, but the romantic spark has died as a result of that stress along with everything else going on in our lives. We still love each other, though. And we will remain friends. He is my best friend. And the reason breaking up freaked me out the most was I was afraid that I would be losing my best friend and my boyfriend. But we've been spending the last little bit talking about things, and yesterday we finally decided that breaking up was the best.

It was hard for me to let go because I'm such an emotional person, and I'm still very much in love with Aaron. But I know that this is the best thing for both of us. If it's meant to happen then later on down the road it will. If not, then I still have my best friend. And I'm okay. I really am okay. Because he is still in my life. He is still my dearest friend. And that means a lot to me. That's what I was clinging to when I should have let go long ago. He was holding on because he does care about me and didn't want to hurt me. So now we are no longer a couple. We're friends. Close friends. And while I know having him be around me is going to be painful sometimes, at least for a while, being without my best friend would be worse.

So, yes. I am okay. I'm not going to go psycho or break down. I promise. ^_^ Thank you to everyone who has been supporting me through the problems Aaron and I have had lately. It meant a lot to me. I'm just glad I was finally able to think about all of this and talk to him about it. It's a load off both of our shoulders. And we still have each other. And that makes me very happy indeed.