What Do You Want Me to Do?
How many times do I have to apologize for what I did? How much longer am I going to have to deal with these ups and downs? Because, quite frankly, I'm tired of crying my eyes out on and off all day and having chest pains pretty much constantly from the emotional stress this is causing. How many times do I have to cry? How many times to I have to tell you how much I love you? What do I have to do to fix this? What do I have to do for you to be the guy you were before that fight in February? I don't feel pretty around you anymore. I don't feel worthy. You used to make me feel beautiful. You used to make me feel like a princess. You treated me right. You were a romantic. And that's the guy I fell in love with. Now you use the excuse that you are a guy. Well, Honey, I didn't fall in love with a guy. I fell in love with a romantic who treated me like I was worth something. Sometimes I still get a glance of that person. But most of the time you're downright mean to me anymore. You act like you don't even want to try to fix things. Like you don't love me anymore. Like you're just acting up to make me hate you so you won't have to be with me anymore. I've got bad news for you: I'll never hate you. I will ALWAYS love you. And, damn it, I am determined to right my wrongs. Just freaking let me! GAH!
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Dear, I've never met a guy that doesn't do that. It's not you. Trust me. Guys are always lovey-dovey and what you're looking for at first then they change over time because they kind of baby-step you into how much of an asshole they are. Also, I would like to point out that all guys are assholes. It's part of their genetics. They put on an act because they do what they know you like. Lee was amazing when I first met him and now his favorite hobby is farting on me. ._.; Lmfao.
Also, upsetting you like that over a fucking stupid little mistake like that is so babyish. Something like that shouldn't even matter, and he shouldn't hold it over your head with his baby attitude. You shouldn't have to tolerate his highschool games. That's what it is.
If that little fight has changed him that much then what will he be like in the future? I mean, half of what makes a relationship last is toleration and getting over yourself. Seems you've done your half, now he needs to do his. If he can't then he just cant handle an adult relationship.
The last boyfriend I had did the exact same thing to me. He broke my heart by taking "breaks" and they became more and more frequent and if one stupid thing happened he would act like a dick and play mind games with me. Eventually he was going on dates with other girls while on a break with me. I'm not saying this is going to happen to you, and I'm not saying you should be suspicious of him but I'm telling you that you shouldn't bring yourself down over a guy. I don't want to see you hurt.
I haven't met the guy but I think if he keeps this crap up then someone is getting a boot stuck up their ass.:P
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