*sigh*

I know you guys are probably tired of the Aaron-related entries, but...

It amazes me how much I love him.

How my heart still does flip flops every time I hear my cell phone ring and then see 'Aaron Calling' on the screen. How I get that big goofy grin on my face when he calls back five minutes later "just to say I love you" one more time. How much I miss him during the week. So much that I close my eyes to imagine he's with me. Then I only miss him more. Imagination has nothing on how wonderful I fill just to hug him. How when I'm with him I wish the moment could last forever so that we'd never have to be away from each other. And how empty I feel when he finally has to leave. I never thought I'd feel so strongly about another human being. That another person would ever give me the opportunity. Aaron is the love of my life. I don't care how young we are or how unlikely it is that we'll stay together in everyone else's eyes. I refuse to let anything or anyone come between us. Becuase I don't think I could ever feel about someone else the way I feel about him. No one else could put up with me. Or comfort me. Or love me no matter what like he does. It's scary sometimes. The emotions I feel concerning him. But not necessarily in a bad way. I love the way he makes me feel. I love the sound of his voice and the way he smells. And so much more. I made a list a while back about the 'little things' that I love about Aaron.

1) He calls me every morning during the week to wake me up because he knows that I sleep through every alarm clock I have. Even though he doesn't have to be up for at least another hour.

2) He tries to like the things I like even if he hates them. He sits through them anyway because he knows I want to share everything with him.

3) He tells me I'm beautiful even when I know I look like crap. I don't even have to say anything about my looks. He just constantly reassures me.

4) He made me love song CD mixes with stuff like Savage Garden and "Come What May" from Moulin Rouge. Cheesy. But listening to those CD's makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

5) He knows when something is wrong no matter how hard I try to hide it. He always gets me to tell him everything. Then he tells me everything that's on his mind.

6) When I tell him I love him he asks me how much or how long or why to coax me into being mushy. It's cute that he wants me to be all lovey dovey like that. He likes it just as much as I do.

7) When we're holding hands he randomly lifts my hand up to kiss it. ^___^

8) He brought me roses as an apology the day after he gave me my first kiss. Because he didn't ask if he could kiss me first. There was never any need for an apology. But he said he felt like a jerk about it later because he knew I'd never been kissed.

9) He calls me his wife even though we aren't even engaged...technically. And when a girl hits on him he tells them he's married. His MySpace profile says he's married, too.

10) Sometimes he looks at me and says something like, "Hey. Can I get your digits?" Silly pick up lines like that. I love it.

11) When we first started dating I wore strawberry lipgloss every day. So he'd taste it when we kissed. Now he has this obsession with these strawberry candies that I keep on my desk at home. And when I put some of the lip gloss on he goes, "Uh-oh," and looks at me expectantly.

There are so many more things that could be added, but I'm out of time here.

Wow.

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