I'm Sorry

I'm sorry that I can't be stronger about this. I wish I hadn't cried. I wish I was stronger than that. But I know that won't be my last cry over this. I won't lie to you. I wish I could. I wish I could tell you that I am fine. That I'm okay. But I'm not. I'm hurt. I never thought loving someone could hurt so much. And not just emotionally. I'm in pain. I don't say these things to make you feel like a jerk. You are so wonderful to me that there is no reason for you to ever think of yourself as a jerk. Or inconsiderate. I love you. You mean everything to me. And that's why it hurts like this.

So where do we go from here? What do we do to fix this? I love you too much to let you go without a fight. I need you. I don't care how desperate, clingy, or stupid that sounds. I do. I need you. You are the one person who really cares about me. Who tries to understand. Who loves me no matter what. The one person whose embrace can make me forget all the bad things going on around me no matter how bad those things may be. If you only knew how much you mean to me. I wish there was a way for me to tell you or show you how much I care about you. But I'm at a loss for ideas.

Please help me on this one, Babe. You are my everything. And if you ever leave me, I don't know what I'll do. I know I sound foolish. I swore I'd never depend on a man the way I depend on you. But it's too late to take back what I feel now. My love for you is one of the very few things that keeps me going sometimes. And I'm willing to do almost anything to keep you in my life the way we are. In love. Willing to do whatever for each other. Please don't take that away from me.

I love you.

So now what?