I Am So in Love

I feel like a girl in one of those mushy love movies. And I'm okay with that. For a long time part of me was still afraid that I would get hurt again. And I held back. I didn't let Aaron know how much I cared about him because I didn't want him to use it to hurt me the way that John did. I didn't want to hurt again the way I did after John. Two years of depression was enough to teach me a lesson I'll never forget; a pain that I'll never forget. But I'm closer to Aaron now than I ever imagined. I didn't think it was possible to love someone so much.

But Aaron has become a permanent fixture in my life. I plan my future with him in it. I'm not just living for me anymore. I honestly see us getting married after college. (Only because I refuse to marry before then. I want my life to be settled before I start settling down with a husband and kids, etc.) He has already asked if I'll marry him one day. More than once. Not an actual proposal, just a question of will I want to when he asks me. Of course I will. Every moment I'm with him is the happiest moment of my life.

We don't really fight. We argue a little, but we're always gentle about it. And we end every argument with excessive apologies, fault taking, and I love yous. He's a romantic, and he needs me to care for him as much as I need him to care for me. And I love that. I'm perfectly willing for us to take care of each other for the rest of our lives. I don't know how I'd live without him at this point. He is my world. <3

And then I have Meg, who is the best friend a girl could ever ask for. We're back into our randomness now. It's good to hang out with Meg again and just have fun blaring Chieco Kawabe on the highway with the windows down while we sing along at the top of our lungs. I <3 you, Meg!! Best friends for life, ne?