GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

That pretty much explains life at this point. >_< I'm so stressed and frustrated lately. Not to mention depressed...AGAIN. I just want to crawl in a hole and stay there until everything settles down. I really need a good cry to feel better about things, but I CAN'T CRY for some reason. Which sucks. Because now I get to keep everything all bottled up until some unfortunate fool says or does something that just causes me to go psycho and start the whole screaming, crying, and curling up into the fetal position on the floor gig. I feel like such an emo dumbarse when I talk about my depression and what happens when the pent up emotions finally break free. But that's really how it is. Why sugar coat anything? Sugarcoating only ends in disappointment.

There's so much drama with people at school and with the whole John situation. He still hasn't talked to me, by the way. I was going to talk to him after school, but my brother had to play dumb and follow me around after school instead. GAH! And when I was fussing at him about it, I think some guys across the hall heard me...and they are definitely friends with John. GREAT. I was really freaking out at first, but now I'm just like screw it. If they have nothing better to do than make fun of me then I'll just tell them to grow up, get a life, and if they think it's going to hurt my feelings any that they think me caring about John is funny, they're wrong. I don't give rat's arse what they think. Dumbarses. I loathe such people as them. They lead pathetic and meaningless lives. And that job interview still hasn't earned a call for me. I'm going to call them tomorrow if they haven't called me by the time school gets out. Grr. I NEED that job gosh darn it.