Blogging Slump

I just haven't really felt like writing in a while. There have been plenty of things I've wanted to write about, I just didn't feel like it. Laziness, maybe? 'Dunno, but whatever it is, I hope it passes. I'm blogging now to pass the time, so this may be a long and pointless entry. Mwahaha!! XD

I've been looking at scans from Japanese magazines here a lot over the past week or so. I even have some favorites that I look at a lot to inspire me to be and dress different than the average person here in TN in the USA. If only I had the clothes to do it. :/ I think I'm going to start using Japanese fashions as an inspiration and making some of my own things. Like mini-skirts just to wear with jeans, frilly shirts, etc. I'll get my mom to help me at first and teach me how to use that scary thing known as the sewing machine. She can't do anything fancy. She has to have patterns to do anything, so I'll be learning as I go as far as designing and making stuff from scratch. But I think it would be fun and very self-rewarding. Not only would I be making a statement, but I'd also have the satisfaction of being the only one to own that article of clothing.

In other news, I discovered Utada Hikaru, and her song "First Love" has become yet another of my "John Anthems." -_-;; It's a ballad, of course. But the translation just really hit home. Actually made me tear up a bit. I've been thinking about him way too much lately. It's driving me insane. I go a little crazier with each passing day. I know those of you that shared the times I dated John via online journals consider him a complete asshole, but that's because I took all of the wonderful things he did for granted and only told you about the bad ones. And I wasn't such a wonderful girlfriend, so I really had no room to talk bad about him. :/

I'm leaving for my Aunt Jennifer's wedding in Orlando, FL bright and early in the morning...scratch that, just early. There will be nothing bright about it. I'm just going to stay up all night burning CD's for the trip, working on my homework assignments I got in advance from my teachers so I won't be behind when I return on Monday, and maybe even working on some internet stuff. I also need to finish packing. I'm still slowly but surely getting that done. Laziness and procrastination. : P It's in my genetics. Blame my dad.

I really need to start writing here more. The things that interest me, and the artwork I do. I think it would make me feel better. And I think it would be easier for all of you to keep up with what's going on if I post more than twice a month. I'd like to post a good lengthy entry once a day, but I've just been in a slump lately. I've been neglecting school to an extent, my online responsibilities, and anything else you can think of. I just haven't been with it. I haven't really sat down and drawn in months. I haven't tried to write a decent song in months. I haven't tried to make a statement with my clothes because I'm too afraid of criticism, and I hate that. I just need to get with the program. I really think I would feel better.

Oh yeah! I downloaded DongBangShinKi's entire album. Holy crap, that song TRI-ANGLE featuring BoA and The Trax rocks!! I have listened to it over and over! I plan on buying the real album and supporting DBSK as soon as I have the money. Awesome does not even begin to describe this Korean boyband. HAWT begins to, though. : D~

OMG, Ashley talked about how great I was in her journal and made me tear up. It felt so great to be called a good friend. I don't think anyone has ever called me that, and that kind of makes me paranoid that I'm not a decent friend in the least, as much as I like to think I am. I'm so glad she and I became friends. It was just so random when we met, but it was for the best. We have a blast every day at lunch, especially with Heather and Megan. "Save a life, poke a squirrel!"