Of Asian Dramas and Pop Music

All I've done in recent days is zone out in front of a couple of Asian dramas on my computer. Heh. And download lots of Asian pop music. But, hey, I also bought a couple of albums fair and square. I test out my Asian music before I pay the outrageous prices for the actual CD's. Especially Japanese albums. A full album is like $40. That's a good junk of change so I make sure I really like the artist first.

I've wanted to continue organizing all of my craft and desk supply stuffs, but I haven't been able to get to a store to look at some shelving and bins or baskets. And I've thrown away everything I don't want so all that's left is to reshuffle things into the proper containers. But first I have to buy the containers! Ugh. I want to make it look prettiful so badly! Darn not having a car. Heh. Of course, once I get my license, I'll have Ryan's car for the rest of the time I'm stuck here. He's going to leave it here when he comes to see me this weekend. My dad and I will take him back to base before he has to deploy. Gosh, I can't believe how close that day is. Meh. T-T I'll trade having the car for having the hubby any day! My sadness over how much I'm going to miss him over the next year is quite the appetite suppressant. Which is bad. Because for once in my life gaining a little weight is good. And I had apparently lost some at my last doctor's appointment which I got some disapproving looks for. My bad.

Decor on the Brain

I have been doing a whole lot of nothing. I have the urge to organize and decorate...guess that whole nesting thing is starting. Unfortunately there's only so much I can do in my parents' spare bedroom. Heh. But I'm working on it anyway. And I've been setting aside time to re-work through my textbook and accompanying workbook from Japanese at UT last year. Don't want to lose that. And once I get some of the aforementioned organizing done I want to start working on my scrapbooks again. But I need to get my stuff for that all set up in a cabinet or something that looks nice and is easily accessible so I won't be too lazy to actually pull some of it out and work on it from time to time.

The word is that Ryan will be coming home next weekend to see me. I'm excited about that, but I'm sad that it will bring us one step closer to his departure for Afghanistan. But the sooner he leaves, the sooner he's back home with me and our baby setting up house in Jacksonville to finally start our life together instead of trying to do everything over telephones and e-mails. And that is a day I'm looking forward to immensely.

Morning Sickness

Actually I think it's more like night sickness. For the past three nights I've tossed and turned, lying awake resisting the urge to throw up. When I finally fall asleep around 4AM it's because I'm simply too exhausted to be awake anymore. But that's when everyone in my parents' house starts getting up and moving around so I wake up every hour or so even then feeling like I'm going to be sick. I end up 'sleeping' until around 11AM due to the lack of sleep earlier in the night only to still feel terrible. I force myself out of bed anyway rather than lay there the entire day and sip a Coke Zero for an hour or so to try and settle my stomach before I eat anything or attempt the steam of taking a shower. And I thought I'd avoided this whole thing. Poo.

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Disability insurance?

Bleh

I'm so unmotivated to do much of anything. I really want to get myself into a better routine and accomplish several things during all of this time I have: refresh my Japanese, learn some basic guitar for my Hello Kitty Fender, scrapbook, start school this summer, finish reading all of my military wife and pregnancy reference books, etc. But instead I usually just sit around staring off into space doing absolutely none of those things. I'm angry with myself for it, but I can't seem to drag myself out of the rut. Ugh. Here's hoping when some of the first trimester sleepiness slacks of that I'll stop slacking so much.

I think I'm putting a lot of things off until after Ryan deploys. Which is good, I guess, because I'm going to need anything and everything I can get my hands on to forget that I can't just pick up the phone and hear my husband's voice whenever I please. I suppose I can let myself be lazy until then. But I'll give myself that as a deadline. Knowing how I can be with free time, I might have to schedule out my days to get things done instead of just watching Asian dramas and slipping slowly into madness for hours at a time.

Pregnancy Symptoms

Oh my gosh I cannot get enough sleep. I'm sleeping like 12 to 13 hours a night. No joke. And I'm usually still beat by the time 10PM rolls around. This whole pregnancy thing is going to have me in a coma. ^_^;; I don't want to sleep that long. It just kind of happens. I wake up a couple times in the middle of the night, and I suppose I just need to force myself to get out of the bed during one of those moments that occur once the sun is up instead of just fluttering my eyes back closed and crashing out again. I'm almost into my second trimester so here's hoping I can get onto a more normal sleep cycle then.

And the hunger. I'm hungry about every two to three hours. Eating three square meals a day doesn't cut it. I'm trying to just eat smaller meals and spread them out so I'm not a complete lard. The baby supposedly only needs 100 to 300 extra calories a day, but maybe I'm just burning my energy calories faster as a result of the pregnancy? It's not that I really need to eat more, I just need to eat more often, I think. And I need to start walking before I do become a lard. Heh. I'd rather not have to lose a bajillion pounds post-baby because I was a lazy lard that used pregnancy as an excuse to eat.
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Looking for motorcycle accident attorneys? I won't get anywhere near a motorcycle, and neither will Ryan after all the safety briefings featuring photos of the aftermath of motorcycle crashes that the USMC has given him.

Back in Tennessee

I died when it came to blogging while I was visiting Ryan in Jacksonville. We weren't really accomplishing anything super exciting to blog about so I just enjoyed every moment I had going to lots of movies, shopping, and driving around with the husband while I had him. He's hoping to get an extended weekend off next month to see me one last time before the upcoming deployment but no promises. If not then this trip was the last time I'll see him for over a year. Heh. The life of a military wife.



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Anyone need to set themselves up with a toll free number? I'm good to go.

I'm legal in every way! Except for rental cars.

Don't you hate those stall vendors in the mall that chase you down rambling on about ridiculous things like ornamental grasses or Dead Sea Salt? Ryan recounted one such instance when he first arrived here in Jacksonville. The sea salt lady was chasing him giving her spiel, and while he meant to come up with some excuse about being in a hurry, all that came out was an exasperated sigh. Haha. Needless to say the lady, actually quite offended, has not bothered him since. Score! Now you know the secret.

So yesterday was my 21st birthday. It kind of sucked actually. My birthday has been pretty craptacular for the past three years so I wasn't exactly let down. Just not happy with my birthday luck - or lack thereof, apparently. But why go into all the little things that made me hate life yesterday? At least I got to spend it with Ryan, drugged up though he may have been since he had his wisdom teeth pulled on Monday. He was able to laze around the hotel with me for three solid days on bed rest. But he had to head back to work today so I'm waiting for him to get out and call me so we can go spend some more time together. I'm really not looking forward to going home without him. I miss him already.

In Jacksonville

I've been spending the weekend hanging out with the husband. Going out for food, watching movies, shopping, taking a day trip to Myrtle Beach, etc. Fun, fun. Today he unfortunately had to have his wisdom teeth removed so he's just lazing around the hotel room trying eat mashed potatoes and macaroni and cheese. Poor thing. Nothing else really specific going on. Just trying to spend time with Ryan and have some fun together.

The Day of Errands

I will hopefully be heading out to see Ryan tomorrow morning! Yay! Doing some laundry and packing tonight. Had to make an ink cartridge run so I could print off a few photos of myself to laminate for Ryan to take to Afghanistan with him in case I don't see him again before the deployment begins. I already laminated a copy of the ultrasound for him which he's excited about having.

I also went over to Tusculum College, as in the first college out of two so far I've attempted to do something with, and had a transcript mailed to East Tennessee State University where I hope to attend classes this summer. Maybe longer if I can figure out a way to make child care work...I'd really like to stay in school this Fall and Spring. I really, really don't want to drop out and get lazy again after already having been out of school for an entire year plus last summer. I'll still have to transfer whatever I do at ETSU to somewhere in Jacksonville, North Carolina, to complete an actual 2-year degree when I finally get to move there with Ryan next year sometime. But at least I can get a few semesters out of the way and maybe take some Japanese stuff for fun and the eventual 4-year degree I hope to complete when we move again in a couple of years. Ugh. The hassle of it all.

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I'm not quite sure how to fit engagement rings into a post, seeing as I've already been married for several months. So here's my sad attempt.

Religious Ponderings

I went to church with my mother-in-law last night. The bible study on Wednesday nights at their church is really quite informative. The pastor there teaches instead of just screaming about fire and brimstone which made it a fairly pleasant experience. I actually learned something. I promised Ryan when we started getting serious that although I did not want him shoving his beliefs down my throat, that I would study and make further decisions on what it is I believe. I've been an Agnostic Theist for several years now; it started sometime in high school when I was going through all that teenage emotional turmoil and decided that the whole of Christianity was a load of poo.

But that was just my angst talking, and I don't want to let that get in the way of at least trying to do the right thing now in my marriage with Ryan. His religious beliefs are a big part of what makes him my Ryan, and it's really important to him that I revisit the idea of Christianity without my perpetual cloud of teenage angstiness in the hopes that we will be together even after death. So I'm making the honest effort of learning, discovering, and deciding what I do and do not believe when it comes to Christianity.

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Interested in a Garmin GPS? I think MapQuest has me covered for the impending See-the-Husband-for-What-May-be-the-Last-Time-Before-He-Departs-to-Afghanistan-for-an-Entire-Year road trip.

Baby, It's Cold Outside

It's so cold! Ugh! I think I'm about over it. It's actually been snowing on and off this week. Crazy. Which is why I figured it was still winter enough for the new design! : D I've been trying to keep motivated and re-design this place at the beginning of each month. I still can't seem to part with the rounded edges, though. They just look so much cleaner to me than the typical corners. Heh. I suppose it's just a phase, and I'll get over it eventually.

I'm hoping to head to North Carolina to see Ryan this weekend! If all goes well, and he isn't stuck training the whole time or something. I'm going to stay for 10 days so hopefully I'll have a chance in there somewhere to spend some time with him. We doubt he's going to get any official time off before the deployment so this might be our only chance for a decent farewell. And the first time we've seen each other since finding out about the pregnancy. So it means a lot to me that it work out and we get to be together a little before he goes.

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Anyone interested in a wine of the month club? I'm currently alcohol free...even though I turn 21 next week. Heh. This baby had impeccable timing, ne?

The Non-Excitingness of Me

I don't really know what to blog about right now. The most exciting thing that's happened all day is a little bit of snow, but even that didn't stick around for long. And I gave the dog a bath. Balanced the checkbook. Ordered more checks. You know; all the fun stuff that makes life grand. I suppose I should bask in the glow of free time while I have it. In about 7 months I'll be begging for five minutes of time to stare at the ceiling and do nothing productive or exciting without falling asleep.

Mmm...hot chocolate with mini marshmallows...

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Anyone in the market for a weight loss supplement? I'm one of those weirdos that is supposed to be gaining weight for the time being so I'll pass. Heh.